Birth Dreams

I've been researching breech births and things to do to turn a baby who is breech. I've kind of decided to just leave her alone. If Daisy wants to turn she'll turn. However, I AM talking to her and asking her to turn. Last night when I laid down I started explaining the birthing process and why it would be so much easier and smoother if she turned. My sweet little girl started stretching and kicking - almost painfully. It was so interesting to experience her response to my voice - maybe even on a deeper level.

At 4:30 this morning I had the most intense, realistic dream. I dreamt that I was giving birth to Daisy. It was so calm and so relaxed that we forgot to call the midwife until she was crowning and almost here. In my dream I never felt rushed or anxious or afraid. My little Daisy just moved herself down, head first, and was born without all of the sadness of my last birth. And then there she was - perfect and whole. The dream was so real that it woke me up. I just laid there - unsure if she was really here, or really about to just fall out.

All of this to say - I have SUCH confidence that Daisy will come head first into this world. I am so certain that my body, and my baby, are preparing for the ANTICIPATED day of her birth. Every time I dream about her I feel closer to her. I already feel like I know, and have held, my little girl. I can't wait to meet her. :)

Breech

I'm almost 34 weeks and little miss Daisy Belle is breech. It took me a few days to process how I felt about her position because I've never had a baby NOT dive head first as soon as they could! She obviously has LOTS of time left to turn and, trust me, she is an ACTIVE baby. Sometimes I wonder if she's trying to figure out how to turn around... or maybe she's an active zumba-ist like her Grandma Cookie. She definitely responds to music... and her family's voices. Daisy will kick and poke and squirm when she hears her daddy's voice, but she LOVES her brother's and sister's voices. It must be those gentle and soft little words of love and excitement traveling through the amniotic fluid to her tiny little ears. She is so responsive to love - and she doesn't have any idea who they are or what the world outside of the womb is like.

I've been dreaming about Daisy a lot. My midwife says that she believes that Daisy's dreams are connected to my dreams since we are so very connected right now. I dream about birthing her, holding her, seeing her smile, and even about holding her tiny hand through my belly. It might be a little weird, but it's also so comforting. I've never dreamt such deep and real dreams about my babies before they were born. And, considering how disconnected I felt from her at the beginning of my pregnancy, it is such a gift to feel like I already know Daisy and she already knows me.

I've also not felt even a moment of anxiety about being done with this pregnancy. Everything has flown by so quickly - I know I will be in labor before I know it. So, I'm just living in the moment. I'm preparing for her arrival, dreaming about her and enjoying my kids and husband before Daisy changes us forever.

My midwife suggested I read up about breech births and watch any videos I can find. She says some babies are meant to be born breech and if Daisy doesn't turn she isn't worried. So, I've been researching ways to try to get her to turn and watching youtube videos of natural breech homebirths just to prepare for the possibility of a breech birth. It's actually amazing to watch a baby being born feet first. I've heard it's more painful - but doesn't every unmedicated birth hurt? I'm finding that I am really not afraid of the pain this time. The pain of childbirth has never been the end of me. In fact, it has produced such joy, such comfort, such accomplishment. The reward far outweighs the suffering. Story of my life :)

Aravis wants to celebrate Daisy's birthday. It has never occured to me to celebrate a birth, but I love the idea. We're thinking of ways to celebrate Daisy's first moments. Obviously we're looking for ways to celebrate that don't involve mama getting out of bed :) If you have any suggestions send them my way! We can't wait to celebrate our tiny baby!